HELP!!!!

Oh my gosh... I darn depressed with so much of unhappiness which way to choose? what decision to make... How can I satisfy two conditions at once?... sigh..

Lord, I pray desperately for your guidance and wisdom. I pray that you help me make a decision that could satisfy both conditions Lord. Help me... I don't want to feel this way... I can't take this neither does anyone else... I can't pretend my way through. I need this help desperately... Others suffers by my side making me an evil person no one likes. Even know it feels like all hopes is gone. I know miracle happens beyond imagination. water to wine and 5 bread 2 fishes to thousands. I pray for a huge miracle to happen here with happiness for all. Amen

My Engineering vacation... What would I want?

Vacation is all I need. Yes, I did have some. 2 camps. One of which I am pretty familiar with the people. ICF Camp 2008. yeap cool rite? Here's a link to the pictures, a credit I shall give to my favorite boss, the bassist, cameraman/photographer, car expert, 'pencinta wanita'(lol), one with good practical work, the one and only MARK HWANG. lol yeap yeap. Here's the link of the pictures.http://s66.photobucket.com/albums/h267/hmarkg/Level%20Up%20ICF%20camp%202008/?start=84

Of course, there is another camp of my interest but turn out not really of interest. So happen Mark was suppose to attend but couldn't and 2 lecturers that was suppose to attend also couldn't attend leaving me with a bunch of gamblers and smokers full with vulgar words. Don't get me wrong. I don't do what they do but overall they were kind and good people and I wouldn't say I did not enjoy anything with them. I did and was pleasant. Here's some picture that I took with my phone camera.

Beach view from the pent house balcony

Another Beach view from the pent house balcony

Another beach view from the balcony

This view is from the entrance to the lift(A view opposite the pent house)

This fish is humongous called the dragon fish

Another picture of the big fish. It is probably almost 180cm

Some description of the fish

The pool site. I had hours of swimming and enjoyed the sauna. Unfortunately no picture of the sauna.

A guy's pent house. It was messier. Many times more.

A guy's bedroom

The basketball ring broken by my friend who wanted to show that he can hold on to the ring and do a slam.

Wow! Coconut seller. Lol, it is actually an illegal plucking of the beach coconut trees.

My tasty American breakfast worth RM15 that was for free. Lol

Some of them trying to throw pebbles that bounces on the water.

A somewhat unique fan that can spin when there is win. It is made from wood. purely wood.

Thats about the vacation. We had a barbeque session where one of my lecturer finally made it but when home after that. The whole session was full of swimming, beer and gambling. All I did and enjoy was swimming, beer, breakfast and chat. haha

I want... I want... I want... There is tons of things I want... People gets demanding as they grew. Let the list begin and see how many gets fulfilled at the end of the year...

1. Leather wallet(specific material)
2. Handphone pouch(specific material)
3. A black jacket from top to the knee
4. Somebody to come to australia with me if i go.
5. A scholarship to Australia UNSW or a prestigious US uni
6. LAPTOP with cool specs such as 2GHz, good graphic card, high memory and so on.
7. Electric guitar - Ibanez or yamaha
8. Acoustic guitar - soft strings with cut off at the middle.
9. A cool shoe - badminton
10. Get back in touch with Wai Ying Mei Mei and Gabriel
11. Kimberley to remember and email me often.(someone worth remembering, yea)
12. Buy cool clothes from SUB.
13. Buy gifts and clothing for kim.
14. Lots of cool electronic project.
15. Help Mark Hwang(boss) do project.
16. Learn speaking skills.
17. Learn managing skills.
18. Own car, MyVi can la...
19. Get smart about electronic theories and studies as well as practical works.
20. Learn mandarin.
21. Maple figures and plushies...(dunno how to spell)

Thats all for now... yeap... So many things I want but seems hard to get them... haihz... Only time can tell. Sigh

~Unchangable fact that needs a miracle~(a really big miracle, I pray).