Help me

Lord, help me... I don't wan to feel painful. Give me a song to ease myself. I am thankful for her but why? Have I done something really wrong? I just want her to be herself at least someone i love living with?

Its just painful. More and more each day just thinking. Give me new strength each passing day. Cheer me up. Distract me. Help me.

Guys cry? sigh I wish to and to let it all out. I just cant. Probably not to good at it. I want to find a spot to shout out all I have within.

Why? I did as she said, doing stuff that I know might not be so well after all but mayb it was a change. Believed in her that it might be useful.

I don't like fairness. Everything done should be out of love. If no love was involved, that where fairness comes in, expecting something in return or expecting one to do it as well. Love allows one to do something without complains or wanting something back. That's just it. Do things don't expect anything back. Just exactly like giving to you God. With no strings attached. Why? she love me? why? why do ppl wan fairness. There is not at all fairness in the world.

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!! Help me... or take me... this life is sometimes so pitiful that wants to give up.

~lost~